...and finally

it's been a while i haven't post anything...
and today...finally,i kinda have feel to post something.

before this...i don't really have time to post anything..and my internet line kinda slow.
and when i have time..i prefer to fool around and do nothing basically.
watching anime...new drama...and of course sleep!!!
ha3.

and beside..i need to sort out certain things that been troubling me for some time.

lot's of things happen now and then.

lot's of things to be consider of.

and of course lot's of other people feelings that need to take care.

we live in the world...with various kind of people..with various personalities...and mind.
and it happen that in this society..where i live in, people still care about people around them.
and when i say  about people..i know that some people prefer to live in their own cave,where they don't feels like to mingle with other people.unfortunately..i'm not like that.

i just a simple person that need someone to stand by my side.
and for that..i'm really grateful to ALLAH to have my family and friends to stay at my side to get through this life.

we only have ONE life to stay..so it's better to keep moving forward!!
and no matter what happen in the past..forgive..forget..then move on to next stage.

and that is my new year resolution!

TO FORGIVE..

TO FORGET..

AND MOVE ON!!!

hmm..well..it is much more easier than done..but i shall try my best to live like that. (^_^)

FINALLY!!!

After 4 years...

4 years honey....

aku finally GRAD!!!

try cari mana aku.ha3

W0ho!!!clap3.

And trust me..this 4 years...bukan mudah dan bukan senang untuk aku hadapi.

Segala bagai dugaan yang terpaksa daku hadapi.(macam la idup aku sebelum nih tak mencabar?hahaha). Tapi siyesly sangat mencabar. Banyak drama gelak tak boleh blah..dan of course yang nagis mengilai macam orang gila. Yep. So true.

1st year aku kt UPSI...memang best!!Kengkawan rock!!
Tak kira la coursemate atau PALPAES-mate. Suma best-best!!Memang enjoy idup aku.

Mai 2nd year...aku dah start nagis. Tapi nagis diam-diam la. Nagis dekat bantal. (ala..macam la korang tak penah wut?). Memang siyes aku try my best tak nak bagi orang tengok. Tapi terkantoi gak kat sesetengah orang yang rapat ngan aku time tu (and mereka agak panik dan terkejut tengok aku nagis.Ha3)

Then 3rd year...finale year aku dalam PALAPES. Memang best i tell you!
Tapi yang tak berapa best...aku agak mudah jatuh sakit masa kem.
Masa kem tu gak...ada 'menda' masuk dalam badan aku...(tapi tak poses aku la...cuma bagi aku deman semacam).
And sebab tu aku aku diletakkan di tempat khas for pemerhatian (and i must say...aku ingat certain thing yang sangat sweet bagi aku la. But let it be my memory.Ha3.)

4th year aku kt sana...aku dah tamat PALPAES so boleh la aku melepak macam orang besa. Tak perlu dah melalak and bangun awai stiap rabu and of course ujung minggu for training. Aku boleh lepak-lepak ngan kengkawan aku.

Sepatutnya.

Tapi rupa-rupanya kena join gak!!(dipaksa ok?!!Masa sem 7 la kt sna. .sem 8 kami suma praktikum and aku praktikum kat smk banting. Jadi mustahil la aku nk join training.)

And i must say...finale year merupakan tahun yang penuh emosi buat aku.

Emotional Breakdown.

Bayangkan...masa sem 7 berat aku 52 kg...and masa aku sem 8..berat aku 40 kg. Just imagine that. 
Dan berat aku turun mendadak dalam masa sebulan saja. Sebulan!!
And i must say...that time my life is indeed like sweet sour chocolate.

Masa aku sem 8... memang tertekan. Stress yang paling teruk aku penah alami. Dan banyak keluaq ayaq mata (berbaldi-baldi aku rasa) disebabkan perkara-perkara yang aku tak ingin cakap.  
But i must say..thank you to those people that involve. Sebab merekalah aku baru kenai dunia.  

Know the nature of human. 

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Without them...i would not know the world true friends and pain. Trust me! Dan semestinya aku ucapkan terima kasih sebab aku baru tau dan kenai sapa aku yang sebenarnya dalam dunia depa.
I would try my best to  not cross the line that YOU already state. 

So i have face the ups and down.
Face some people that need me...and dump me like some kind of trash. 
That treat me as their kind...and of course treat me like some kind of object ( hold when needed and burn so would not leave a trace ). 

What else can i say beside THANK YOU! I shall beware and alert after this.

And the finale of those day..those four years...on 28th JULY 2011...THE GRADUATION DAY!!!

THANK YOU mak and babah for attending my big day...
THANK YOU along for always with me and go through my pain and hardship..
THANK YOU to my friend that know the real story and share my pain with me..

THANK YOU GUYS... FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAD,HAVE AND WILL DO TO ME!!!

Happy 23rd Bdy Honey~

Today is 22th of JULY and one of the greatest thing that also happen in my life.

WHY?

It is because today is the BIRTHDAY one of important love in my life.

Yep!!It's you CIK TAT!!!EPPY BDY MY LOVE~

Thank You so much for staying with me.
I could not ask for more as you willing to be with me and walk with me in this life.

At this moment...that is the only thing that i can say.THANK YOU SO MUCH!

and once again...

HAPPY BDY CIK TAT!!Here's your cake!!!

 OWH!And not to forget...Happy BELATED Birthday to my other love in this life (Do feel ease. My heart big enough to fill you guys.You guys ARE my world ok? )

P/S: And you know what?While i search all this pics...typing "HAPPY 23 BIRTHDAY" (and all those pics looks great and delicious too..hu3..and kinda make me hungry), i found an interesting pic...

Aren't he look fimiliar minah..tatie and hajar?he3.

cili oh cili~

Situasi : 

Mija and Ajiq sedang makan nasi goreng cina. Tiba-tiba ja Mija terus berlari-lari anak ke arah along yang dok kat dapoq.

mija   : ibu..air...air...

along : kenapa mija?

mija : abang tipu mija....dia kata tu bukan cili tapi cili

along: abang, kasi mija air.

ajiq : abang kata tu cili hangus laa..sapa suruh mija makan? ada abang suruh?
        ( sambil hulur air, sambil marah )

mija : yerr laa...tapi cili hangus tu bukan cili...cili takder hangus kat belakang...

kerana lapo...suma bley wut!

Kali nih aku nak story menda yang jadi dekat aku la.
Kes nih bley kata hot-hot gorpis la (kalo translate melayu profesional org kata panas-panas pisang goreng ka goreng pisang?).

Anyway...aku memang gelabah tahap gaban (oh...aku memamg jenis mudah gelabah...tapi nih gelabah tahap maksimum lagi!!).
And tok pengetahuan korg suma...tangan aku ketaq tak abes lagi!!Siyes!!!
Ketaq lutut abes arr.Sampeikan jantung aku pam 200 km/h aku rasa.(Okey..nih hiperbola yang terlampau...tapi memang dup dap lebih dari had besa la).

Nak jadikan cerita, semalam aku masak ayaq panas la (Nih habit aku la.Aku suka bancuh ayaq malam-malam sebelum tido).

Then nak sedapkan cerita lagi...BOLEH AKU LUPA NAK TUTUP GAS!!!(Bahaya siot!!Korg jangan tiru cam aku!Tapi siyes!! Aku lupa!!!). So abes la tong gas umah kak aku. Tapi agak mujoq tak jadi apa-apa. (Aku ngaku aku memang clumsy...tapi nih memang tahap mafia la punya clumsy.Hu3).

Jadi...dari alkesah semalam...terbitlah kesah ari nih yang hampir meng'ICU'kan aku.

Why? Ya la. Gas abes. So macam mana aku nak masak? Makan apatah lagi.

Jadi kak aku pon menitahkan aku g makan kat luaq. Along suruh la aku gigih berjalan ke kedai yang berdekatan . Al-maklum la...ari nih kan ari kerja.

So aku ja la yang terdampar di umah ini with internet and eletricity and piles of house chores to do la.
Tapi pokok persoalannya, MANA ADA KEDAI YANG DEKAT!!SUMA JAUH!! Hmmm.

Kalo nak di ikutkan...kalo jalan kaki...ada gak la dalam 10-15 minit...kalo jalan laju-laju la.
Kalo bajet nak jalan ala-ala cerita BOLLYWOOD..pusing pokok sana...menari-nari...joget-joget...maen ummm cak!!umm cak!!...aku rasa dekat sejam la gak kot tanpa NG .Hmmm.

So after depa suma off to work (along ang abg ipaq aku) and school (ajiq) and nursery (mija and akief la)..so tinggal la aku sorg-sorg  ngan perut mula mendendangkan lagu k-pop yang berkenaan. (Aku rasa ring ding dong kot. Sob3.Lapo weh!!).

Tapi...ya...ada tapi ya kengkawan...Tapi...abang ipaq aku tinggalkan kereta waja  dan kunci kereta di umah!!!(YES!!!BINGGO!!!).
Lalu...idea bijak lagi bernas pon mula la terbit bagaikan mentari terbit di negara jepun!!

Oh yes!!

Hence, dengan keberanian yang menggunung...bersama selawat dan istifar yang boleh tahan banyak kali gak, daku berjalan menuju ke arah kereta itu.
Enjin kereta  di'start' kan...gear reverse pon daku masuk sambei kaki tekan clash ...tangan pon release hand break...tekan minyak sikit...then..off to go!!

AND IT IS MIRACLE!!!  
MIRACLE I SAY!!!

Kereta bergerak weh!!

Tahu tak betapa bahagianya daku waktu tu.
Gelaban mesti la ada.Cuak berbakul-bakul la.
Tapi..kereta bergerak!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Korang tak tahu dah bopa lama aku tinggai bawak kereta.

After aku dapat lesen P...terus aku wut pekasam. Parents tak bagi bawak.
Then bila dah penuh...pon tak bagi bawak lagi. 
Tapi bila mem besaq bebel kat babah, babah pon beli la keta auto kat aku. Viva.
Tapi tu pon babah tak bagi bawak.
And aku rasa...even plat kereta empat number handphone aku yang belakang ...babah macam suka ja BABY aku tu. (Aku penggei Viva tu BABY. He3)
Ya la. Kaki tak sakit sangat. Hmmm.
Tu la..org dah lama suruh beli keta auto..tak nak dengaq. Pak Ya.. oh Pak Ya.

Bila dah da kereta auto sebijik...mula la berebut kunci ngan mak. Suma pakat-pakat nak bawak. Then along pon join sekaki nak rebut keta viva tu.
Abes?
Kereta itu yang dikatakan kepunyaan aku pon aku tak bawak sangat.
Nih apa cerita nih? Habaq mai sat? Haish.

Okey.

Berbalik pada cerita aku tadi...aku pon bawak la kereta waja tu pergi kedai yang berdekatan.
Tapi aku rasa, better aku gi kedai runcit. Beli roti. Boleh tahan sampei petang dari nasik sekali makan sekali habis.

Apa? kalo lapo, drive la lagi? 
HANGGUK KOME!!! Takat drive sekali pon nak tercabut jantung aku, nih pulak berkali-kali!!! MAU AKU ENAM KAKI BAWAH TANAH KANG!!.

Oleh itu, daku pon membuat keputusan untuk gi ja kedai runcit, beli roti, then blah.
Tapi jalan nak gi sana, husih.. Tak la payah sangat, tapi susah la for org yang beginner macam aku.  
Dah la berbukit. Ada traffic light. Ada bumper setiap 700 meter. Kawasan perumahan. So of course la banyak kereta!!!

Namun, aku gagahi jugak. Lapo weh. Hence aku bawak la walaupun agak cam siput sedut nak mati tengah jalan. Kereta belakang maki aku bolayan jer. Muka selamber, tapi hati ALLAH saja yang tau.

Then sampei kat traffic, nak jadi cerita, dok elok-elok kaler ijau, terus merah! ( Sangatla mencabar kehandalan aku drive yer.)

Jadi, harusla aku berhenti. Aku dok break la kan. Tapi aku rasa tak la lama tara mana, lampu pon hijau. Aku pon kalut la nak paut kereta. Sekali enjin mati la pulek!!!Aiseh!!

Dah la kereta belakang dok hon aku!! Dengan pantas aku pon start balik enjin kereta, trus paut dan pecut!! HAHAHAHA!!Aku memang suka wut menda yang mencabar gini. HAHAHAHA.

Akhirnya, sampei la kat destinasi yang ingin ku tuju. Kedai Runcit.

Jauh betul perjalanan semata-mata nak beli roti gardiner tu. Haish. Tapi...ya..ada tapi lagi..KEDAI TAK BUKA LAGI LA PULAK!! Tau tak sikit punya susah aku nak gi kedai korg!! Mencabar!! Korg tau tak!!!
So aku pon tunggu la dalam kereta and bila agak-agak kedai buka, aku pon serbu la.

Aku pon ambek la Roti Gardiner Coklat Tiga.

Then brother yang dok citu pon kata, "Cik, kedai buka pukul sepuloh."  OMG!!!

Hampir luruh jantung aku!!!Kenapa pukul sepuluh!! Kenapa bukan sekarang!!
Kenapa?!!WHY?!!DOUSHITE?!!WAE?!!Hu3.

Dengan langkah longlai, daku pon drive la blek umah. Lambat lagi nak buka. Aku merajuk dengan kedai itu!! Sob3.

Daku pon drive dengan perut yang ntah tune lagu apa tah. Tapi drive balek pon da story gak! Boleh pulak kereta aku mati kat traffic lagi! Sungguh!!! Kenapa harus ada lampu insyarat itu!!! Arghhh!! 

Dah la mati kat situ. Kawasan berbukit lak tu!! Korang bayangkan kereta go stand ke belakang!! Argh!! 

Lalu dengan pantas, aku angkat hand break, start enjin balik, masuk gear then pecut!!! Dalam dok pecut, boleh pulak aku lupa nak free hand braek . Haish! Mampoih kalo Pak Ya tau. Haish!

Then aku pon smpei la kat umah, dengan perut yang kosong dan pengalaman membawa kereta yang dasyat. Haish. 

Tu la al-kesah ari nih.Sekian. 

 P/s: Alamat minum ayaq kosong la aku ri nih..hu3. Tobat aku tak nak bawak dah.Hu3 Tobat ri nih ja la. Esok lupa..tengok la lagu na. Hu3.

a walk to remember

It's 3 a.m (3.15 a.m to be precisely) and i am watching anime while reading manga and writing new entry for my blog ( so much for multi-task person, am i ? He3). Yup.You can say that i am anime and manga freak (oh well...most of my friend already know about it.He3).

As i browsing some of new manga online, my eyes suddenly caught a title of a manga. It is called as 'Socrates in Love'.( Interesting, right? ). Judging from the review from those that already read it, this manga already converted to a movie . One is in Koren - 'My Girl and I ' starring by Song Hye Gyo and the guy from sassy girl movie.  Then, the Japanese version of the movie goes with the title 'Crying Out Love' , ' In the Center of the World', 'Sekai no Chuusin de', or known as ' Ai o Sakebu' . But i must say, i haven't watch any of those movies yet.

As i scroll down their comments, a comments draw my attention to it. It states that this manga is like the story of ' A walk to remember', and to tell you the truth, I REALLY LOVE THAT NOVEL!!! 

YEP!!I DO LOVE IT!!

I can still remember, the 1st time i heard about it when i was 17 years old. I start watching the movie starring by Mandy Moore and the guy..err...he is..err....i ...forgot.... his name already (sorry, my bad. =(. so sorry. Hu3). But hye...i know his character name. London.(He3). To be frank...between me and you, as i watch that movie.... i cried...a lot!!!yep!!!A LOT!!! By just watching that movie!!!( YES!! That damn good movie made me cry to my heart content. ME! the heartless ME!CRY!!! ) And the scene were i cried...was being caught red handed by my neighbor!!!( You would not know how embarrass i am at that time ). But i just cant help it!! You know. It just..so  sad... And touching...  And the story, is so ....touching....and the character do love each other so badly....and....and.....URGH!!!IT IS MARVELS!!SPLENDID!!BRAVO!! Indeed it is worth to watch...over and over again. As for the soundtrack, just perfect! The songs...really touch my heart. (and still, it keeps ringing in me).

As  for the novel, i started to read it a year after i watch it of course. At KMPK. I borrow it from a friend of  my roomette. And guess what? Even though i already watch the movie, i must say...by reading the book....IS MUCH....MUCH...MUCH...MUCH MORE MARVELS!!SPLENDID!!!BRAVO!!.( You would not know how many pile of tears i can collect as i read that book ). And of course, the part that i cry, was caught by my roomette!(She just went back from tutor class as she saw me cried like..err...u can say that i cry, that's all. And of course, she was quite shock to see THAT I CRY. BAKA NEKO!!OF COURSE I WOULD CRY,YOU IDIOT!!!WHO DOESN'T??!!!).


If u ask me, between movie and novel, which one better? I would say, both have it's own attraction. The part that can make you laugh, smile, and cry. To be honest, reading the novel give me much more feelings than watching the movie.We can imagine as we read. Besides, there would be budget limit in every movie,while by reading..the only thing is to imagine. As you read, the imagination would run freely, together with the scene that already written by the author. Before that, i keep wondering, 'Why on earth it is called as A WALK TO REMEMBER?'. When i finish reading that book, i finally know why. And yes...again..i cry. But this time... a cry of relief... for both character. 

But let me give u a warn...you might laugh. You might smile. You will feel happy. Then, you will cry. A LOT. It's kinda twist and mix feelings. But i can sure you, you will feel all of it at once. By just reading this book.It is indeed ,worth book to buy. And i do not regret buying this book. Even i read it over and over again, i still cry. A LOT. (^_^).

peace and harmony...where are you?

sigh~
right now...all i can say that all the negative thought flow inside me  and chase away all the positive side that i keep holding on to.The problem is not as simple as ABC...but not as hard as calculus (well, i am kinda suk at this subject. Sigh~)


my biggest problem would be my heart and my brain ( i guess so ).
i just cant change yet...and it takes time...a long time for me to change it.
and frankly...when people push me, really hard...it kinda drove me to the corner you know (to the end of the cliff to be exact).

i mean...always called and ask the same thing all over again... it's drive me nuts!!
as for my limits to handle this stuff, to be patience would be 3 times ( the 4th time you ask me...u better prepare for the worst! ).The moment i need to explain for the same matter ( again and again )...i will start to lose my temper.( I am kinda short temper person..but somehow ..i kinda manage it cause when i loose my temper, it might turn REALLY UGLY ).

even i do feel guilty inside me...my alter ego just cant let it through.( I am LEO anyway. We are indeed hold our pride high u know ).
even if i want to fix it...it just...my body and my mind does not work that way ( It's the pride thing..u know ).

besides, i just dont know how to express my feelings and my opinion except being rebellious to the matter...
even if i try to act cool...like i just dont care...deep inside..its killing me.

i even wish that all the pain and suffering would be wash away by rain...or blown away by wind.
sometimes...i even think that amnesia would be good to erase all the darkness that engulf me all my life.
but it just mean that i'm running away from myself...the true me.

i just dont know what to do....or how to react to that matter....and it just drive me to the deeper darkness...
i just hope someday...everything would be much matter...and run smoothly.
i just hope for a peace and harmony...as it's been a while these feelings keep distance from me.

(=_=) sigh~

真の馬鹿？

私はそのような馬鹿だ！                                                             [내가 바보]


真の馬鹿！                                                                                   [진정한 바보!]

なぜ私はそれを前に実現しなかったのですか                              [왜 그것을하기 전에 몰랐어요?]
 
私は真の馬鹿ですので！                                                         [내가 진정한 바보 때문에!]                                                                                      

down memory lane (^_^)

Sedang aku message dengan my GFF ( Cik Minah )..tetiba terimbas kenangan masa kat sekolah menengah. Bila teringat, macam lawak pulek. Sangat banyak kot menda pelik-pelik aku dan kengkawan aku buat. Al maklum...aku sekolah suma perempuan. Sultanah Asma School a.k.a SAS. Dari Form 1 sampei la Form 5 aku stay sana...tak penah nak tukaq sekolah. Lagipon...memang ari sekolah rendah lagi aku bercita-cita nak masuk sekolah tu (sebab kak aku pon sekolah tu ).  And frankly...i am proud to be one of ASMARIAN (only those that enroll this school are called as asmarian ).

Kalau nak diikutkan...aku...minah...tatie and hajar cuma sama kelas masa kami Form 2 ja...2 KEDAH. Salah satu kenangan yang aku teringat saat kami semua baru ja abis kelas KHB. Blok Form 2 ngan makmal KHB dekat saja. Sebelah-sebelah pulek...tapi kalau nak pegi makmal KHB, kami kena pusing satu blok arr gak.

Ni la blok Form 2..and Form 3...tapi bdk2 Form 3 dok atas..

ni pulak view full block Form 2 and 3..belah kiri tu la makmal KHB

So sebab nak jimat masa (masa itu emas...time is gold bebeh!!).most of us akan guna short cut kalo nk g makmal..( of course la...blok sebelah pulek ).Yang best part pasai blok Form 2 nih...tingkap dia SANGAT LUAS!!!. Ala-ala tingkap iklan adabi pon ada gak..tapi memang luas la.
So dari info yang aku bagi la kan...agak-agak apakah jalan short cut yang kami guna?

blok makmal KHB sebelah saja dengan blok Form 2...
dan tingkap kelas Form 2 besaq ala-ala tingkap adabi..he3

short cut dia...
OF COURSE LA IKOT TINGKAP!!!!

hehehe..dan aku rasa...half population asmarian penah lalu ikot tingkap tu (sama ada dengan baju kurung sekolah ataupun baju pj ).
Nak dijadikan cerita pulek....masa tu kelas KHB dah abeh la.So masa pertukaran subjek laen, kami kena dok dalam kelas. Macam biasa...aku dengan kengkawan aku masuk la ikut tingkap ( of coz !!!sebelah jer. buat apa nak bazir tenaga tawaf blok, kan? ) 
Dan nak dijadikan cerita lagi...masa kami sedang aktif masuk kelas ikot tingkap ...kegiatan kami dilihat oleh CIKGU DISIPLIN...in short..caught in almost red handed ma!!!
so long story kita shortkan..beliau pon menjerit dan terus datang ke kelas kami (and untuk pengetahuan korang, kalo namanya kelas KEDAH a.k.a K, tak kesah la form berapa pon, macam kena black list ja. Mybe atas kenakalan mereka itu, rasanya la. Why? Sebab kelas aku dok asyik kena aim jer. Haish. )

So dengan suara nyaring..beliau pon datang ke kelas kami dan berkata.." Sapa yang lalu masuk kelas ikut tingkap tadi angkat tangan!!cepat ngaku!!!". ho3..kantoi sudah we all!!( tapi aku lega sebaba aku dah jauh dari kawasan jenayah itu. seat aku jauh skit la. he3. SAVE!!!)

Disebabkan beliau pon tidak tahu sapa delinquent yang masuk ikot tingkap..of coz la tak da seko pon ngaku (termasuk aku la. Nak mampus kalo ngaku? Takut weh!Hu3).Sebab tak ada sorang makhluk pon ngaku...dan cikgu tu terus membebel sampei agak mau tercabut telinga we all. Finally,ada la sorang tu angkat. SORANG SAJA OK!!I REPEAT...HANYA SEORANG SAJA YANG NGAKU dari seluruh kelas!! 

Dan gadis yang berani dan gagah perkasa itu tak lain dan tak bukan...CIK SITI AMINAH ZUHRI!!!(siap dengan muka insaf abes la wa cakap sama you all !! ). Lepas tu...cikgu tu bagi warning dan terus belah. He3. Dan kes ini aku akan ingat sampei bila-bila..(best kot minah.hang sorang ja ngaku kot.MUKAKAKAKA~).

But yang pasti...zaman tu memang best!!and i love my school. SAS THE BEST!!!(and of coz to u too minah. Sebab keberanian hg ngaku. He3. Cayala!!!)

2 kedah (2002)...masa exam..he3

YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING

Don't YOU know..that YOU are MY WORLD?MY UNIVERSE?
YOU are everything for me...

my STRENGTH...
my COURAGE...
my WISDOM...
my LIFE...
my HAPPINESS...
my SADNESS...
my SMILE...
my TEARS...

and of course...YOU ARE MY LOVE...

as YOU are EVERYTHING that I HAVE...
THANK YOU  for STAYING WITH ME...
THANK YOU for HOLD ME TIGHT..

and I PROMISE...even the whole WORLD against YOU...

I WILL ALWAYS WITH YOU.....'TILL THE END OF MY LIFE..

why?

BECAUSE YOU ARE MY EVERYTHING...

this,i dedicate to YOU...and i believe..my feelings will reach YOU..as YOU feel the same way as i do...

I will ALWAYS LOVE YOU..no matter where YOU are..and with WHOM YOU with....

(^_^)...LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH~

 

 

oh my pren~

hari nih aku nak crita pasai salah seorang memba aku. aku kenai dari darjah 3 la...cik tat nick name dia.
cakap pasai cik tat ari nih dia g bank..and menda yang memalukan pon berlaku. cerita dia gni...

 " aku gi nk deposit duit, pastu aku sbnrnye xde experience gi deposit duit. ehehehe. 
aku pon sua la duit..... eh ni asal xnak bukak ni! yg aku igt die sensor... ehe. 
pnye la aku maki2 secara sopan kat mesin tu. 
pastu aku gi la complain kt akak tu.. 'akak, mesin tu rosak eh'... 
pastu akak tu cakap leh je gune.. 
pastu aku gi skali lg..
punye la lamaaa aku duk kt dpn mesin tu. kt blkg dah ramai gile org bratur.. 
pastu aku pon main tekan3... xnak bukak jugak cover tu. 
pastu kan...ade abg blkg aku tekan butang kt atas tu...maka terpancar lah skrin ' pilihan bahasa'... "

hahaha...cik tat...cik tat...aku rasa la...if aku wut cerita hang yang tahap petala alam nih, memang berbuku-buku dah cik tat oi..hehehe..

A peace~

i just finish listen to some of their songs...( 2 actually...Lover Boy and SOS )
and what i can say that...

THEY ARE GOOD~

even the members are quite large..(emm..it is still too many for me)
but hye...they are talented and good.

watching their song ( lover boy)..i'm totally impress..
i mean..when they dance..it's like there some mirror in between them..
smooth dude!!
very smooth!

and the song...just my cup of tea (^_^)

to Double B 21..keep up the good work..
it might be hard..but hye..roman does not built in just a day u know..
it takes time..

and frankly..cant wait to see them live..(i am still bother 'bout compressing all of then on a stage..he3)

FIGHTING!!!!!

 p/s: see..they already divide themselves into 3 group...(suddenly i have a habits to post bout K-pop...oh my!!)

woho~

SHOCK!!

totally shock!!!
(ok..i'm not singing beast-shock song right now.this is indeed my expression!!)

like always..i open my mr lappy..surfing the internet..searching for songs...(and its like my almost daily routine, lately)

then it hit me!!this one band..
boy band...and ...the 1st thing my brain register is that...

IT'S TOO MANY!!!!

i mean...like Super Junior...we have 13 members right?
and according to them...if all of them on stage...and in straight line....some of them might fall.
that is like 13 people on stage.

this is Super Junior a.k.a SUJU

but then....
this group...
this particular group...A-Peace..

consist of 21 members!!!
21 guys!!
O.M.G!!!
that is double of SUJU members!!!(well..some plus and minus here and there...but that is not really the point here )
the main point is that...HOW ON EARTH THEY ALL GONNA FIT ON SAME STAGE?!!( i'm dying to know to..seriously!!i am!!)

what?
u dont believe me?

here's their pic..

You can count for yourself if you don't believe me..he3

see?!!
told you so!!!
(-_______________-")hmm~

but they say...they are divided into 3 sub group...and each group consist of seven members (now slowly i might remember them..he3)

but don't you guys dying to see all of them on same stage?

well,i am!!(hahahaha)

they might need larger stage..or make smaller movement so some of them don't fall from stage..he3.
exciting is it?(he3)

DR CINTA?

OLA my friend~

i'm back!!!

miss me tak?
ho3(sangatla perasan ek anak dara pak ya and cet not nih)

lama sangat aku tak post kan?
bukan pa...ternet mengong sejak kebelakangan ni..
da la ari tu aku sikit (banyak arr gak) semangat...berkobar-kobar nak post...

sekali tak boleh lak...

aku try lagi...pon tak boleh...

aku karang lagi..tak boleh gak..

hangin la aku satu badan...(mana tak..ingat senang ka aku karang?skrip tak penah sama tau tak?!!bajet ak typewriter rosak nak tulis beribu-ribu kali? Naik fed-up la mak, nak oiiiii~)

tapi finally...ari nih aku boleh post!!!(clap3!!)

macam baek semacam lak ternet umah kak aku nih kn?ho3 (cik sakinah yahaya..cuba2 bersyukur skit...sudah2 la ngadu...(^_^) ho3~ )

OK!!
now back to our business!!
yang aku nak cerita bukan kes ternet yang macam mintak aku boh antenna kt lappy ataupon kes post aku yang tak berapa jadi (tapi aku tercerita gak..he3)

yang aku nak cerita adalah....jeng3~

tadi jiran kak aku bagi ak pinjam novel!!
yep!!

N. O.V.E.L

tapi apa la yang menarik sangat 'bout this novel?

nak dekat 2 minggu gak aku tunggu wei nak baca novel ni!!
2 minggu aku merana ok?!! (mau masuk Tampoi gak aku tunggu novel ni smpei kt tangan aku..kalo lambat lagi seminggu...sesungguhnya aku kena mendaftar masuk Tanjung Rambutan la plak)

ni la novel yang membuatkan aku tidoq tak bopa lena..makan tak penah kenyang..

title            : Doktor Cinta
production : kaki novel (of coz la!!)

my review  :RECOMMENDED!!

Hahahaha...
dan sesungguhnya aku bukan jenis baca novel sangat (klo anime + komik + mangga aku juara...jangan kata pa..cet not dan pak ya pon malas nak tegoq..hahahaha).

Tapi siyesly novel nih best!! Tak tipu!!  DA BOMB!!! (sampei da part wut aku hampir nak nagis. SAKINAH YAHAYA NAGIS!!Err..hampir nagis la. Ayaq mata tak nak jatuh.Tapi still, kira dasyat la...sebab aku bukan jenis mudah nagis..ho3)

Yep!!bagi aku...aku suka!!(thumbs up bebeh!!)
Best ooo..tak tipu..
bahasa yang digunakan pon agak2 macam bahasa yang aku selalu guna..
heroin plak...memang sengal la..
hero?tak perlu ulas memanjang la.
ncem...kaya....tapi perangai hampeh.
sebab pa hero jadi lagu tu?sebab putus cinta.1st love dia dikhianati.

synopsis cerita?
u all baca la snirik!!
hahahaha...
mau aku kena saman kalo cakap lebey2?
lagipon..tak thrill la kalo aku cerita..
lebih2 lagi cerita nih dah ada dalam penulisan2 u..
browse jer..
mudah kan?
sekali taip...tekan...terus jumpa..
hahahaha...

and lagi satu...aku memang jenis gini...jangan harap dapat korek story dari aku!!baca snirik!!klo tak...tak perlu beli..hahahaha..

cuma satu ja aku tak bopa setuju la..
kalo boleh la...kita tengok suma watak hero dan heroin semua ncem2 dan cantik2?
abes?
orang yang simple dan normal macam aku mana nak letak?
tak ke kome heran?
tak ke?
tak ke?

suma nak perfect ja.
tapi klo nama pon novel...gini la ey? khayalan...cerita dongeng...fiction..(tetiba otak aku register lagu fiction dari beast..fiction na fiction..ekekeke)

cuma best kan idup macam dalam watak novel dan cerita...
kita tau sapa hero...sapa heroin...then kadang2 plot crita pon dah tau...
dan most of story..
tak abes2 dengan cinta kontrak...(pembaca pon dah luak dengan plot jalan cerita tapi nak wut gana..baca ja la..hahaha)

macam jadi season lak kes kawen contrak2 nih..
yang best tu kawen ngan tengku la...anak datuk la...
dah la ncem...kaya lak tu..
Fuhhhh...
kadang2 describe hero...macam pelakon korea la...( heaven kot kalo betoi...hehehe)

tapi ya la..sebab sekarang kan suma pakat dok gila lagu korea...normal la kan?

malangnya realiti tak sama dan seindah dunia fantasi novel...
apa yang diidamkan tak semestinya sama...
ada yang buat list lelaki/perempuan idaman..(aku tak wut ok?)
tapi yang dapat..selalunya berbeza dari yang diidamkan..

but that is life...
that is LOVE..

aku tertarik dengan pengertian cinta dari heroin novel ni..

"Cinta bagi saya gurauan dalam kehidupan. kadang-kadang buat kita ketawa, kadang-kadang buat kita terasa dan gurauan yang buat kita macam-macam emosi. Kalau yang mencantikkan lukisan adalah warna, maka yang mencantikkan kehidupan adalah cinta...tapi CINTA ini macam HANTU, SEMUA ORANG PERCAYA TAPI TAK SEMUA YANG JUMPA"..

"..kalau saya cintakan dia...biarlah dia sendiri yang rasa, bukan sebab kata cinta saya tapi sebab rasa cinta yang datang dari dia sendiri"...

best kan ayat dia?ho3.i like~

kalo nak difikirkan..
aku penah buat sajak pasai cinta tau.(yes!!i have!!even aku rock aku penah ok!!!)

tapi aku tak la publish kat mana2..
segan kot.
then of coz la bahasa jangan tengok langsung...hancus...memang rosak la.
dan macam aku kata la...
andai cikgu BM aku tengok..menagis beliau..
tambah2 lagi kalo pak lang ak tengok (sebab pak lang aku cikgu BM dan juga yang ngajo aku tusyen dari form 1- form 5..sorry pak lang non..sob3)

walau apa pon...selamat la membaca novel nih..
memang best~
layan~

last but not least..
love you all~
muahs~

tidak ada apa yang pasti..

 I'M BACK!!!
ho3..

ok guys..cita aku la pasai memba aku la..
cita dia gni..
sedang aku layan fb aku..(macam besa la)
kawan aku pon ada buat post yang agak touching2...
kes cintan cintun la..(owh well...umo dah wajib kawen,besa la kalo bab cintan cintun nih)

then dia tanya..

" Mnggu n bharap dkat org yg kte syg tp xpasti dia syg kte or x atau bpaling n prgi dkt org yg trg2 syg kte atau duk diam2 xyah wt pape..which 1 is d best choice? "

woho~
i guess this question pop frequently in most of gurls..or boys mind..

and if u ask me guys..my answer would be..

"IT'S UP TO U"

yep..it's ALL to u..
because it's about you own feelings... 
and the one that's going to take the consequences..is NONE other than YOURSELF.


I can only give you options..
but it's up to you..to decide it..

it's your life...

your won happiness.

no one should steal it from you...

and no one should decide it for you.


it's all up to u..

hence..option yang aku bagi kat kawan aku (lebih kurang gini la bunyi dia) :

1. wait..(and makan ati sampei turun berat badan)
2. move on.. (and try to find your won happiness)

memang agak bias aku punya jawapan..tapi nih ikot logik aku la..
yes...ak mmg sorg yang suka ikot logik...macam pepatah melayu lama la...ikut hati...mati...ikot akal...idup la kot (mau nangis cikgu BM aku kalo baca pepatah aku...sorry cikgu. Hu3)

bukan apa..masa aku kat Matrikulasi Perak a.k.a KMPK dlu..(alahai...tetiba teringat dekat KMPK. Hmmm.Nanti la aku cerita ey? He3).Lecturer math ak penah la citer pasai kesah cinta dia dlu..

dia kata..dia jatuh cinta sama sorg pompuan tu..masa tu kat University la...sgt3 love that gurl..
smpeikan pak dia sakit..dia tak jengok pon..
hence..masa tu pak dia dah sakit teruk..tp dia tak blek gak..sebab ingat nnt ok la tu...
then nak dijadikan citer..masa dia nak balik kg...pak dia meninggal..and org kg kebumikan la awai2 ( ya la. Tak elok simpan lama-lama). Then bila lecturer aku dah sampei...pak dia siap dikebumikan dah..
masa tu dia nagis..dan menyesai sgt2..sbb dia pilih pom tu (seseorang yang belum tentu hak milik kita) dari pak dia (seseorang yang comferm - comferm sayang and terima kita selama-lamanya).

and of coz la...klo nama tak pasti...comferm2 la depa tak together...clash la depa...

so lecturer aku bagi la nasihat kat kami...and dia kita lebih baik kita hold pada menda yang pasti...dari sesuatu yang blum tentu pasti....

tu la citer dia...

tapi tu kes antara family ngan org luaq...
nih plak kes mmg org yang takda pertalian darah dengan kita...
( kecuali kita semua asal dari ADAM and HAWA la)


Kes kapel mapel...cintan cintun la...

you guys kna ingat...if tak da jodoh...korang bersama 300 ribu juta tahun pon...tak jadi pa.

tu kita dengaq kes kapel ngan org laen...bertunang ngan org laen...last2 kawen ngan org laen...
plek kan?
but this is how the worlds works.

everything happens for a reason.

and even bila korg dah together...korg kena ingat pepatah nih plak...


"sedangkan kapal terbang di langit bley rampas..apatah lagi makhluk yang berkeliaran di muka bumi?"


so how?
dah dapat pon kena jaga2 ka?

oh well...
sbb tu aku kata...

TIDAK ADA APA YANG PASTI..

so meh la ramai2 kita lengkapkan keperluan dan kemudahan yang kita perlu tok menghadap kemungkinan yang tak pasti nih.

tapi korg kena ingat..hanya satu yang comferm2 pasti..
cer teka menda?

cer teka...cer teka?

hmm..mls la nk tunggu korg bagi jawapan...baek aku jawap sendirik (selalu dah aku bagi soalan, aku jawap sendirik.Hu3)

tak lain dan tak bukan...

KASIH SAYANG ALLAH KEPADA KITA...

sesungguhnya tu la yang pasti...
even kita lupa pada DIA...tp DIA tetap bersama kita...sayang kita...

so..."LU PK LA SNIRIK" mcm bang bil kata...(sorry..ambek lagi trademark bang bil. He3)

(^_^)v

( p/s: Kepada sesiapa yg terasa dan terkena batang idung..sorry..tu cuma kebetulan jerr..he3.Peace To Da World~)

al-kesah suatu petang

Suatu petang yang aman damai, sedang aku lepak2 depan tb ngan anak2 buah aku ( harusla...sebab aku dok umah kak aku ),hp along pon berbunyi.

Memandangkan along sedang bertungkus lumus di dapoq (masak la wei..apa lagi)..aku pon angkat la..

aku         : Halu~

abg amir : Panggil long dik

aku        : Along~~~~

then seketika kemudian..

akief      : Ayong~~~

            (ngan suara comei and halus)

owh!!
tersentap aku ngan along after that..
sbb pa?
mulai ari tu...akief panggei ibu dia ayong~

(-___________________-")

p/s: sorry long..sesungguhnya adik tak bersalah..lalalalalal~

ONE STEP AT A TIME

w0ho!!

finally..
i have my own blog..
yea!!!(clap3)

well...
this is my 1st post..
so i SUPPOSE it should be important..
right?
he3..

frankly..
i just feel like i want to..
so i just proceed with  it..
( and this is one of my nature. I just do whatever i feel to do. Ho3 )


so i choose the tittle 'one step at a time'

( feels like writing answer for English paper. He3 )

yes..

one step at a time..

step by step...


you might want to know why i choose it..
( even you don't want to know, i shall tell it anyway. Well, this IS MY blog, right? (^_^).He3 )

it is due to the circumstances that occurs me lately..

occurs..
( take note. It is indeed in PLURAL FORM.)


yep..
lots of things going on here and there..
but i'm not talking 'bout worlds domination..
or how to preserve energy..
or..which football team would win ( not yet, i guess )

it just..something 'bout my life..
my personal life..
my feeling..
( hmmm...kinda cheeky huh? )

but yes..
suddenly i woke up..
and realize it..
that I DO have feelings...
I DO feel pain...
I DO care 'bout myself..

and all those small things that occurs to me daily life make me realize again...
that i'm growing up!!

THE REALITY HITS ME!!

it does!!
and it hits me hard!!
(not THAT hard as it does not cause me amnesia. Ho3 )


if u ask me 13 years ago..
i would not bother with..make up..dress..hair..and the list continue 'till infinity..


but if you ask me now..
hmm..

you should know yourself better...as Nabil Raja Lawak always say.."Lu pk la snirik!"

(P/S: bang bil, please don't sue me because i use your trademark. He3 )

i also notice that i do have feelings..
even most of comments that i heard' bout me is that i'm kinda heartless..
cold face..
and so on..

but hye~

that is just the surface..
we all are actor and actress of the world..
we create our own personality..
our own style..
our own mind..
and of course..our own feelings..


just like everyone else..
I DO have feelings..
it just..i usually prefer to bear it within me..
and at some point..it's killing me..

it does!!

it happens!!

but at that time..
i realize something else..

even i was left out alone in darkness..
even i cant reach the light..
even i fell despair..sorrow..n all the negative thought engulf me..

suddenly..
i can feel the presence of LOVE..
of HOPE...
of JOY... and HAPPINESS.

why?

why do i feel it?



the answer is simple...

FAMILY AND FRIENDS..

yes!!
even i was left out alone in dark..

i can feel they reach me and hold me tightly..

and stay by my side with patience..

at time when i feel despair..
sorrow..
and even hate myself..

they hold my hand..

and whisper to my ears that i'm important to them...
that they love me for who i am...
that they would share my pain...
and they would share their joy with me..

as long as i let them do it..

as long as i allow them to share..

as long as i'm willing to move..

yes..

as long as i move..

even it just one step towards happiness..

they would hold me..
embrace me..
and stay with me..

and because of them..
i begin to move..
even only one step at time. 
because i know..
that no matter what happen to me..
they would always stay with me..

thank you ALLAH s.w.t..

for giving me chance..
to redeem myself..

for giving me this GIFT...

my family...and my friends.


i am truly grateful to YOU,
and those that willing to be with me.

THANK YOU for accepting me for who i am.

THANK YOU for remind me that i am, who i am.
 i am..who i am..
and

THANK YOU for loving me for who i am.
 
THANK YOU FROM DEEP OF MY HEART.

LOVE YOU ALL~

ALWAYS..IN MY HEART AND SOUL~

(^_^)V