ONE STEP AT A TIME

w0ho!!

finally..
i have my own blog..
yea!!!(clap3)

well...
this is my 1st post..
so i SUPPOSE it should be important..
right?
he3..

frankly..
i just feel like i want to..
so i just proceed with  it..
( and this is one of my nature. I just do whatever i feel to do. Ho3 )


so i choose the tittle 'one step at a time'

( feels like writing answer for English paper. He3 )

yes..

one step at a time..

step by step...


you might want to know why i choose it..
( even you don't want to know, i shall tell it anyway. Well, this IS MY blog, right? (^_^).He3 )

it is due to the circumstances that occurs me lately..

occurs..
( take note. It is indeed in PLURAL FORM.)


yep..
lots of things going on here and there..
but i'm not talking 'bout worlds domination..
or how to preserve energy..
or..which football team would win ( not yet, i guess )

it just..something 'bout my life..
my personal life..
my feeling..
( hmmm...kinda cheeky huh? )

but yes..
suddenly i woke up..
and realize it..
that I DO have feelings...
I DO feel pain...
I DO care 'bout myself..

and all those small things that occurs to me daily life make me realize again...
that i'm growing up!!

THE REALITY HITS ME!!

it does!!
and it hits me hard!!
(not THAT hard as it does not cause me amnesia. Ho3 )


if u ask me 13 years ago..
i would not bother with..make up..dress..hair..and the list continue 'till infinity..


but if you ask me now..
hmm..

you should know yourself better...as Nabil Raja Lawak always say.."Lu pk la snirik!"

(P/S: bang bil, please don't sue me because i use your trademark. He3 )

i also notice that i do have feelings..
even most of comments that i heard' bout me is that i'm kinda heartless..
cold face..
and so on..

but hye~

that is just the surface..
we all are actor and actress of the world..
we create our own personality..
our own style..
our own mind..
and of course..our own feelings..


just like everyone else..
I DO have feelings..
it just..i usually prefer to bear it within me..
and at some point..it's killing me..

it does!!

it happens!!

but at that time..
i realize something else..

even i was left out alone in darkness..
even i cant reach the light..
even i fell despair..sorrow..n all the negative thought engulf me..

suddenly..
i can feel the presence of LOVE..
of HOPE...
of JOY... and HAPPINESS.

why?

why do i feel it?



the answer is simple...

FAMILY AND FRIENDS..

yes!!
even i was left out alone in dark..

i can feel they reach me and hold me tightly..

and stay by my side with patience..

at time when i feel despair..
sorrow..
and even hate myself..

they hold my hand..

and whisper to my ears that i'm important to them...
that they love me for who i am...
that they would share my pain...
and they would share their joy with me..

as long as i let them do it..

as long as i allow them to share..

as long as i'm willing to move..

yes..

as long as i move..

even it just one step towards happiness..

they would hold me..
embrace me..
and stay with me..

and because of them..
i begin to move..
even only one step at time. 
because i know..
that no matter what happen to me..
they would always stay with me..

thank you ALLAH s.w.t..

for giving me chance..
to redeem myself..

for giving me this GIFT...

my family...and my friends.


i am truly grateful to YOU,
and those that willing to be with me.

THANK YOU for accepting me for who i am.

THANK YOU for remind me that i am, who i am.
 i am..who i am..
and

THANK YOU for loving me for who i am.
 
THANK YOU FROM DEEP OF MY HEART.

LOVE YOU ALL~

ALWAYS..IN MY HEART AND SOUL~

(^_^)V