Happy 23rd Bdy Honey~

Today is 22th of JULY and one of the greatest thing that also happen in my life.

WHY?

It is because today is the BIRTHDAY one of important love in my life.

Yep!!It's you CIK TAT!!!EPPY BDY MY LOVE~

Thank You so much for staying with me.
I could not ask for more as you willing to be with me and walk with me in this life.

At this moment...that is the only thing that i can say.THANK YOU SO MUCH!

and once again...

HAPPY BDY CIK TAT!!Here's your cake!!!

 OWH!And not to forget...Happy BELATED Birthday to my other love in this life (Do feel ease. My heart big enough to fill you guys.You guys ARE my world ok? )

P/S: And you know what?While i search all this pics...typing "HAPPY 23 BIRTHDAY" (and all those pics looks great and delicious too..hu3..and kinda make me hungry), i found an interesting pic...

Aren't he look fimiliar minah..tatie and hajar?he3.

cili oh cili~

Situasi : 

Mija and Ajiq sedang makan nasi goreng cina. Tiba-tiba ja Mija terus berlari-lari anak ke arah along yang dok kat dapoq.

mija   : ibu..air...air...

along : kenapa mija?

mija : abang tipu mija....dia kata tu bukan cili tapi cili

along: abang, kasi mija air.

ajiq : abang kata tu cili hangus laa..sapa suruh mija makan? ada abang suruh?
        ( sambil hulur air, sambil marah )

mija : yerr laa...tapi cili hangus tu bukan cili...cili takder hangus kat belakang...

kerana lapo...suma bley wut!

Kali nih aku nak story menda yang jadi dekat aku la.
Kes nih bley kata hot-hot gorpis la (kalo translate melayu profesional org kata panas-panas pisang goreng ka goreng pisang?).

Anyway...aku memang gelabah tahap gaban (oh...aku memamg jenis mudah gelabah...tapi nih gelabah tahap maksimum lagi!!).
And tok pengetahuan korg suma...tangan aku ketaq tak abes lagi!!Siyes!!!
Ketaq lutut abes arr.Sampeikan jantung aku pam 200 km/h aku rasa.(Okey..nih hiperbola yang terlampau...tapi memang dup dap lebih dari had besa la).

Nak jadikan cerita, semalam aku masak ayaq panas la (Nih habit aku la.Aku suka bancuh ayaq malam-malam sebelum tido).

Then nak sedapkan cerita lagi...BOLEH AKU LUPA NAK TUTUP GAS!!!(Bahaya siot!!Korg jangan tiru cam aku!Tapi siyes!! Aku lupa!!!). So abes la tong gas umah kak aku. Tapi agak mujoq tak jadi apa-apa. (Aku ngaku aku memang clumsy...tapi nih memang tahap mafia la punya clumsy.Hu3).

Jadi...dari alkesah semalam...terbitlah kesah ari nih yang hampir meng'ICU'kan aku.

Why? Ya la. Gas abes. So macam mana aku nak masak? Makan apatah lagi.

Jadi kak aku pon menitahkan aku g makan kat luaq. Along suruh la aku gigih berjalan ke kedai yang berdekatan . Al-maklum la...ari nih kan ari kerja.

So aku ja la yang terdampar di umah ini with internet and eletricity and piles of house chores to do la.
Tapi pokok persoalannya, MANA ADA KEDAI YANG DEKAT!!SUMA JAUH!! Hmmm.

Kalo nak di ikutkan...kalo jalan kaki...ada gak la dalam 10-15 minit...kalo jalan laju-laju la.
Kalo bajet nak jalan ala-ala cerita BOLLYWOOD..pusing pokok sana...menari-nari...joget-joget...maen ummm cak!!umm cak!!...aku rasa dekat sejam la gak kot tanpa NG .Hmmm.

So after depa suma off to work (along ang abg ipaq aku) and school (ajiq) and nursery (mija and akief la)..so tinggal la aku sorg-sorg  ngan perut mula mendendangkan lagu k-pop yang berkenaan. (Aku rasa ring ding dong kot. Sob3.Lapo weh!!).

Tapi...ya...ada tapi ya kengkawan...Tapi...abang ipaq aku tinggalkan kereta waja  dan kunci kereta di umah!!!(YES!!!BINGGO!!!).
Lalu...idea bijak lagi bernas pon mula la terbit bagaikan mentari terbit di negara jepun!!

Oh yes!!

Hence, dengan keberanian yang menggunung...bersama selawat dan istifar yang boleh tahan banyak kali gak, daku berjalan menuju ke arah kereta itu.
Enjin kereta  di'start' kan...gear reverse pon daku masuk sambei kaki tekan clash ...tangan pon release hand break...tekan minyak sikit...then..off to go!!

AND IT IS MIRACLE!!!  
MIRACLE I SAY!!!

Kereta bergerak weh!!

Tahu tak betapa bahagianya daku waktu tu.
Gelaban mesti la ada.Cuak berbakul-bakul la.
Tapi..kereta bergerak!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Korang tak tahu dah bopa lama aku tinggai bawak kereta.

After aku dapat lesen P...terus aku wut pekasam. Parents tak bagi bawak.
Then bila dah penuh...pon tak bagi bawak lagi. 
Tapi bila mem besaq bebel kat babah, babah pon beli la keta auto kat aku. Viva.
Tapi tu pon babah tak bagi bawak.
And aku rasa...even plat kereta empat number handphone aku yang belakang ...babah macam suka ja BABY aku tu. (Aku penggei Viva tu BABY. He3)
Ya la. Kaki tak sakit sangat. Hmmm.
Tu la..org dah lama suruh beli keta auto..tak nak dengaq. Pak Ya.. oh Pak Ya.

Bila dah da kereta auto sebijik...mula la berebut kunci ngan mak. Suma pakat-pakat nak bawak. Then along pon join sekaki nak rebut keta viva tu.
Abes?
Kereta itu yang dikatakan kepunyaan aku pon aku tak bawak sangat.
Nih apa cerita nih? Habaq mai sat? Haish.

Okey.

Berbalik pada cerita aku tadi...aku pon bawak la kereta waja tu pergi kedai yang berdekatan.
Tapi aku rasa, better aku gi kedai runcit. Beli roti. Boleh tahan sampei petang dari nasik sekali makan sekali habis.

Apa? kalo lapo, drive la lagi? 
HANGGUK KOME!!! Takat drive sekali pon nak tercabut jantung aku, nih pulak berkali-kali!!! MAU AKU ENAM KAKI BAWAH TANAH KANG!!.

Oleh itu, daku pon membuat keputusan untuk gi ja kedai runcit, beli roti, then blah.
Tapi jalan nak gi sana, husih.. Tak la payah sangat, tapi susah la for org yang beginner macam aku.  
Dah la berbukit. Ada traffic light. Ada bumper setiap 700 meter. Kawasan perumahan. So of course la banyak kereta!!!

Namun, aku gagahi jugak. Lapo weh. Hence aku bawak la walaupun agak cam siput sedut nak mati tengah jalan. Kereta belakang maki aku bolayan jer. Muka selamber, tapi hati ALLAH saja yang tau.

Then sampei kat traffic, nak jadi cerita, dok elok-elok kaler ijau, terus merah! ( Sangatla mencabar kehandalan aku drive yer.)

Jadi, harusla aku berhenti. Aku dok break la kan. Tapi aku rasa tak la lama tara mana, lampu pon hijau. Aku pon kalut la nak paut kereta. Sekali enjin mati la pulek!!!Aiseh!!

Dah la kereta belakang dok hon aku!! Dengan pantas aku pon start balik enjin kereta, trus paut dan pecut!! HAHAHAHA!!Aku memang suka wut menda yang mencabar gini. HAHAHAHA.

Akhirnya, sampei la kat destinasi yang ingin ku tuju. Kedai Runcit.

Jauh betul perjalanan semata-mata nak beli roti gardiner tu. Haish. Tapi...ya..ada tapi lagi..KEDAI TAK BUKA LAGI LA PULAK!! Tau tak sikit punya susah aku nak gi kedai korg!! Mencabar!! Korg tau tak!!!
So aku pon tunggu la dalam kereta and bila agak-agak kedai buka, aku pon serbu la.

Aku pon ambek la Roti Gardiner Coklat Tiga.

Then brother yang dok citu pon kata, "Cik, kedai buka pukul sepuloh."  OMG!!!

Hampir luruh jantung aku!!!Kenapa pukul sepuluh!! Kenapa bukan sekarang!!
Kenapa?!!WHY?!!DOUSHITE?!!WAE?!!Hu3.

Dengan langkah longlai, daku pon drive la blek umah. Lambat lagi nak buka. Aku merajuk dengan kedai itu!! Sob3.

Daku pon drive dengan perut yang ntah tune lagu apa tah. Tapi drive balek pon da story gak! Boleh pulak kereta aku mati kat traffic lagi! Sungguh!!! Kenapa harus ada lampu insyarat itu!!! Arghhh!! 

Dah la mati kat situ. Kawasan berbukit lak tu!! Korang bayangkan kereta go stand ke belakang!! Argh!! 

Lalu dengan pantas, aku angkat hand break, start enjin balik, masuk gear then pecut!!! Dalam dok pecut, boleh pulak aku lupa nak free hand braek . Haish! Mampoih kalo Pak Ya tau. Haish!

Then aku pon smpei la kat umah, dengan perut yang kosong dan pengalaman membawa kereta yang dasyat. Haish. 

Tu la al-kesah ari nih.Sekian. 

 P/s: Alamat minum ayaq kosong la aku ri nih..hu3. Tobat aku tak nak bawak dah.Hu3 Tobat ri nih ja la. Esok lupa..tengok la lagu na. Hu3.

a walk to remember

It's 3 a.m (3.15 a.m to be precisely) and i am watching anime while reading manga and writing new entry for my blog ( so much for multi-task person, am i ? He3). Yup.You can say that i am anime and manga freak (oh well...most of my friend already know about it.He3).

As i browsing some of new manga online, my eyes suddenly caught a title of a manga. It is called as 'Socrates in Love'.( Interesting, right? ). Judging from the review from those that already read it, this manga already converted to a movie . One is in Koren - 'My Girl and I ' starring by Song Hye Gyo and the guy from sassy girl movie.  Then, the Japanese version of the movie goes with the title 'Crying Out Love' , ' In the Center of the World', 'Sekai no Chuusin de', or known as ' Ai o Sakebu' . But i must say, i haven't watch any of those movies yet.

As i scroll down their comments, a comments draw my attention to it. It states that this manga is like the story of ' A walk to remember', and to tell you the truth, I REALLY LOVE THAT NOVEL!!! 

YEP!!I DO LOVE IT!!

I can still remember, the 1st time i heard about it when i was 17 years old. I start watching the movie starring by Mandy Moore and the guy..err...he is..err....i ...forgot.... his name already (sorry, my bad. =(. so sorry. Hu3). But hye...i know his character name. London.(He3). To be frank...between me and you, as i watch that movie.... i cried...a lot!!!yep!!!A LOT!!! By just watching that movie!!!( YES!! That damn good movie made me cry to my heart content. ME! the heartless ME!CRY!!! ) And the scene were i cried...was being caught red handed by my neighbor!!!( You would not know how embarrass i am at that time ). But i just cant help it!! You know. It just..so  sad... And touching...  And the story, is so ....touching....and the character do love each other so badly....and....and.....URGH!!!IT IS MARVELS!!SPLENDID!!BRAVO!! Indeed it is worth to watch...over and over again. As for the soundtrack, just perfect! The songs...really touch my heart. (and still, it keeps ringing in me).

As  for the novel, i started to read it a year after i watch it of course. At KMPK. I borrow it from a friend of  my roomette. And guess what? Even though i already watch the movie, i must say...by reading the book....IS MUCH....MUCH...MUCH...MUCH MORE MARVELS!!SPLENDID!!!BRAVO!!.( You would not know how many pile of tears i can collect as i read that book ). And of course, the part that i cry, was caught by my roomette!(She just went back from tutor class as she saw me cried like..err...u can say that i cry, that's all. And of course, she was quite shock to see THAT I CRY. BAKA NEKO!!OF COURSE I WOULD CRY,YOU IDIOT!!!WHO DOESN'T??!!!).


If u ask me, between movie and novel, which one better? I would say, both have it's own attraction. The part that can make you laugh, smile, and cry. To be honest, reading the novel give me much more feelings than watching the movie.We can imagine as we read. Besides, there would be budget limit in every movie,while by reading..the only thing is to imagine. As you read, the imagination would run freely, together with the scene that already written by the author. Before that, i keep wondering, 'Why on earth it is called as A WALK TO REMEMBER?'. When i finish reading that book, i finally know why. And yes...again..i cry. But this time... a cry of relief... for both character. 

But let me give u a warn...you might laugh. You might smile. You will feel happy. Then, you will cry. A LOT. It's kinda twist and mix feelings. But i can sure you, you will feel all of it at once. By just reading this book.It is indeed ,worth book to buy. And i do not regret buying this book. Even i read it over and over again, i still cry. A LOT. (^_^).

peace and harmony...where are you?

sigh~
right now...all i can say that all the negative thought flow inside me  and chase away all the positive side that i keep holding on to.The problem is not as simple as ABC...but not as hard as calculus (well, i am kinda suk at this subject. Sigh~)


my biggest problem would be my heart and my brain ( i guess so ).
i just cant change yet...and it takes time...a long time for me to change it.
and frankly...when people push me, really hard...it kinda drove me to the corner you know (to the end of the cliff to be exact).

i mean...always called and ask the same thing all over again... it's drive me nuts!!
as for my limits to handle this stuff, to be patience would be 3 times ( the 4th time you ask me...u better prepare for the worst! ).The moment i need to explain for the same matter ( again and again )...i will start to lose my temper.( I am kinda short temper person..but somehow ..i kinda manage it cause when i loose my temper, it might turn REALLY UGLY ).

even i do feel guilty inside me...my alter ego just cant let it through.( I am LEO anyway. We are indeed hold our pride high u know ).
even if i want to fix it...it just...my body and my mind does not work that way ( It's the pride thing..u know ).

besides, i just dont know how to express my feelings and my opinion except being rebellious to the matter...
even if i try to act cool...like i just dont care...deep inside..its killing me.

i even wish that all the pain and suffering would be wash away by rain...or blown away by wind.
sometimes...i even think that amnesia would be good to erase all the darkness that engulf me all my life.
but it just mean that i'm running away from myself...the true me.

i just dont know what to do....or how to react to that matter....and it just drive me to the deeper darkness...
i just hope someday...everything would be much matter...and run smoothly.
i just hope for a peace and harmony...as it's been a while these feelings keep distance from me.

(=_=) sigh~

真の馬鹿？

私はそのような馬鹿だ！                                                             [내가 바보]


真の馬鹿！                                                                                   [진정한 바보!]

なぜ私はそれを前に実現しなかったのですか                              [왜 그것을하기 전에 몰랐어요?]
 
私は真の馬鹿ですので！                                                         [내가 진정한 바보 때문에!]                                                                                      

down memory lane (^_^)

Sedang aku message dengan my GFF ( Cik Minah )..tetiba terimbas kenangan masa kat sekolah menengah. Bila teringat, macam lawak pulek. Sangat banyak kot menda pelik-pelik aku dan kengkawan aku buat. Al maklum...aku sekolah suma perempuan. Sultanah Asma School a.k.a SAS. Dari Form 1 sampei la Form 5 aku stay sana...tak penah nak tukaq sekolah. Lagipon...memang ari sekolah rendah lagi aku bercita-cita nak masuk sekolah tu (sebab kak aku pon sekolah tu ).  And frankly...i am proud to be one of ASMARIAN (only those that enroll this school are called as asmarian ).

Kalau nak diikutkan...aku...minah...tatie and hajar cuma sama kelas masa kami Form 2 ja...2 KEDAH. Salah satu kenangan yang aku teringat saat kami semua baru ja abis kelas KHB. Blok Form 2 ngan makmal KHB dekat saja. Sebelah-sebelah pulek...tapi kalau nak pegi makmal KHB, kami kena pusing satu blok arr gak.

Ni la blok Form 2..and Form 3...tapi bdk2 Form 3 dok atas..

ni pulak view full block Form 2 and 3..belah kiri tu la makmal KHB

So sebab nak jimat masa (masa itu emas...time is gold bebeh!!).most of us akan guna short cut kalo nk g makmal..( of course la...blok sebelah pulek ).Yang best part pasai blok Form 2 nih...tingkap dia SANGAT LUAS!!!. Ala-ala tingkap iklan adabi pon ada gak..tapi memang luas la.
So dari info yang aku bagi la kan...agak-agak apakah jalan short cut yang kami guna?

blok makmal KHB sebelah saja dengan blok Form 2...
dan tingkap kelas Form 2 besaq ala-ala tingkap adabi..he3

short cut dia...
OF COURSE LA IKOT TINGKAP!!!!

hehehe..dan aku rasa...half population asmarian penah lalu ikot tingkap tu (sama ada dengan baju kurung sekolah ataupun baju pj ).
Nak dijadikan cerita pulek....masa tu kelas KHB dah abeh la.So masa pertukaran subjek laen, kami kena dok dalam kelas. Macam biasa...aku dengan kengkawan aku masuk la ikut tingkap ( of coz !!!sebelah jer. buat apa nak bazir tenaga tawaf blok, kan? ) 
Dan nak dijadikan cerita lagi...masa kami sedang aktif masuk kelas ikot tingkap ...kegiatan kami dilihat oleh CIKGU DISIPLIN...in short..caught in almost red handed ma!!!
so long story kita shortkan..beliau pon menjerit dan terus datang ke kelas kami (and untuk pengetahuan korang, kalo namanya kelas KEDAH a.k.a K, tak kesah la form berapa pon, macam kena black list ja. Mybe atas kenakalan mereka itu, rasanya la. Why? Sebab kelas aku dok asyik kena aim jer. Haish. )

So dengan suara nyaring..beliau pon datang ke kelas kami dan berkata.." Sapa yang lalu masuk kelas ikut tingkap tadi angkat tangan!!cepat ngaku!!!". ho3..kantoi sudah we all!!( tapi aku lega sebaba aku dah jauh dari kawasan jenayah itu. seat aku jauh skit la. he3. SAVE!!!)

Disebabkan beliau pon tidak tahu sapa delinquent yang masuk ikot tingkap..of coz la tak da seko pon ngaku (termasuk aku la. Nak mampus kalo ngaku? Takut weh!Hu3).Sebab tak ada sorang makhluk pon ngaku...dan cikgu tu terus membebel sampei agak mau tercabut telinga we all. Finally,ada la sorang tu angkat. SORANG SAJA OK!!I REPEAT...HANYA SEORANG SAJA YANG NGAKU dari seluruh kelas!! 

Dan gadis yang berani dan gagah perkasa itu tak lain dan tak bukan...CIK SITI AMINAH ZUHRI!!!(siap dengan muka insaf abes la wa cakap sama you all !! ). Lepas tu...cikgu tu bagi warning dan terus belah. He3. Dan kes ini aku akan ingat sampei bila-bila..(best kot minah.hang sorang ja ngaku kot.MUKAKAKAKA~).

But yang pasti...zaman tu memang best!!and i love my school. SAS THE BEST!!!(and of coz to u too minah. Sebab keberanian hg ngaku. He3. Cayala!!!)

2 kedah (2002)...masa exam..he3