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Wednesday, 1 February 2012

zaman dulu2?

lama jugak aku tak post cerita.almaklum....lepak-lepak kt umah nak dekat 8 bulan tak buat apa-apa yang berpaedah aku rasa.
hahahahaha.

tapi tak pa.
bukan selalu 'cuti' panjang gini.
masa kat upsi...cuti paling panjang aku penah rasa...3 minggu?
ya la..kem memanjang.hahaha.

but..all those time that i spend with them..i'll cherish it throughout my life~
ho3.

dan bila lepak sorang-sorang..
mula la teringat zaman dulu-dulu kala (macam dah tua bebenor ja aku nih ey?he3)

msa zaman sekolah..as asmarian...

msa zaman kat matrix gopeng ( time nih ak banyak tengok phenomena alam..)

zaman UPSI (aku sangat miss my friends yang aku selalu lepak...su,ciput.cik kam, petto, pon2,mek da, pjah, yan...geng2 palapes..mar..meemah..ekin..yati..yat..nomie..mama..dan suma yang aku sellau g umah depa tanpa dijemput.ho3)

besa la..bila dok sorang2 memang aku suka layan perasaan.he3.

apa pon..aku sangat harap aku kan dapat keja as fast as i could so that my dream with my girls will come true.amin~
ho3.
p/s:aku rasa yang memang kenai aku tau dah impian aku hok yang ni.he3.cayok2!!!

Saturday, 24 December 2011

...and finally

it's been a while i haven't post anything...
and today...finally,i kinda have feel to post something.

before this...i don't really have time to post anything..and my internet line kinda slow.
and when i have time..i prefer to fool around and do nothing basically.
watching anime...new drama...and of course sleep!!!
ha3.

and beside..i need to sort out certain things that been troubling me for some time.

lot's of things happen now and then.

lot's of things to be consider of.

and of course lot's of other people feelings that need to take care.

we live in the world...with various kind of people..with various personalities...and mind.
and it happen that in this society..where i live in, people still care about people around them.
and when i say  about people..i know that some people prefer to live in their own cave,where they don't feels like to mingle with other people.unfortunately..i'm not like that.

i just a simple person that need someone to stand by my side.
and for that..i'm really grateful to ALLAH to have my family and friends to stay at my side to get through this life.

we only have ONE life to stay..so it's better to keep moving forward!!
and no matter what happen in the past..forgive..forget..then move on to next stage.
and that is my new year resolution!

TO FORGIVE..
TO FORGET..
AND MOVE ON!!!

hmm..well..it is much more easier than done..but i shall try my best to live like that. (^_^)



Wednesday, 10 August 2011

FINALLY!!!

After 4 years...

4 years honey....

aku finally GRAD!!!

try cari mana aku.ha3

W0ho!!!clap3.

And trust me..this 4 years...bukan mudah dan bukan senang untuk aku hadapi.

Segala bagai dugaan yang terpaksa daku hadapi.(macam la idup aku sebelum nih tak mencabar?hahaha). Tapi siyesly sangat mencabar. Banyak drama gelak tak boleh blah..dan of course yang nagis mengilai macam orang gila. Yep. So true.

1st year aku kt UPSI...memang best!!Kengkawan rock!!
Tak kira la coursemate atau PALPAES-mate. Suma best-best!!Memang enjoy idup aku.

Mai 2nd year...aku dah start nagis. Tapi nagis diam-diam la. Nagis dekat bantal. (ala..macam la korang tak penah wut?). Memang siyes aku try my best tak nak bagi orang tengok. Tapi terkantoi gak kat sesetengah orang yang rapat ngan aku time tu (and mereka agak panik dan terkejut tengok aku nagis.Ha3)

Then 3rd year...finale year aku dalam PALAPES. Memang best i tell you!
Tapi yang tak berapa best...aku agak mudah jatuh sakit masa kem.
Masa kem tu gak...ada 'menda' masuk dalam badan aku...(tapi tak poses aku la...cuma bagi aku deman semacam).
And sebab tu aku aku diletakkan di tempat khas for pemerhatian (and i must say...aku ingat certain thing yang sangat sweet bagi aku la. But let it be my memory.Ha3.)

4th year aku kt sana...aku dah tamat PALPAES so boleh la aku melepak macam orang besa. Tak perlu dah melalak and bangun awai stiap rabu and of course ujung minggu for training. Aku boleh lepak-lepak ngan kengkawan aku.

Sepatutnya.

Tapi rupa-rupanya kena join gak!!(dipaksa ok?!!Masa sem 7 la kt sna. .sem 8 kami suma praktikum and aku praktikum kat smk banting. Jadi mustahil la aku nk join training.)

And i must say...finale year merupakan tahun yang penuh emosi buat aku.

Emotional Breakdown.

Bayangkan...masa sem 7 berat aku 52 kg...and masa aku sem 8..berat aku 40 kg. Just imagine that. 
Dan berat aku turun mendadak dalam masa sebulan saja. Sebulan!!
And i must say...that time my life is indeed like sweet sour chocolate.

Masa aku sem 8... memang tertekan. Stress yang paling teruk aku penah alami. Dan banyak keluaq ayaq mata (berbaldi-baldi aku rasa) disebabkan perkara-perkara yang aku tak ingin cakap.  
But i must say..thank you to those people that involve. Sebab merekalah aku baru kenai dunia.  

Know the nature of human. 

THANK YOU SO MUCH!!!

Without them...i would not know the world true friends and pain. Trust me! Dan semestinya aku ucapkan terima kasih sebab aku baru tau dan kenai sapa aku yang sebenarnya dalam dunia depa.
I would try my best to  not cross the line that YOU already state. 

So i have face the ups and down.
Face some people that need me...and dump me like some kind of trash. 
That treat me as their kind...and of course treat me like some kind of object ( hold when needed and burn so would not leave a trace ). 

What else can i say beside THANK YOU! I shall beware and alert after this.

And the finale of those day..those four years...on 28th JULY 2011...THE GRADUATION DAY!!!

THANK YOU mak and babah for attending my big day...
THANK YOU along for always with me and go through my pain and hardship..
THANK YOU to my friend that know the real story and share my pain with me..

THANK YOU GUYS... FOR EVERYTHING YOU HAD,HAVE AND WILL DO TO ME!!!

Friday, 22 July 2011

Happy 23rd Bdy Honey~

Today is 22th of JULY and one of the greatest thing that also happen in my life.

WHY?
It is because today is the BIRTHDAY one of important love in my life.

Yep!!It's you CIK TAT!!!EPPY BDY MY LOVE~


Thank You so much for staying with me.
I could not ask for more as you willing to be with me and walk with me in this life.

At this moment...that is the only thing that i can say.THANK YOU SO MUCH!

and once again...


HAPPY BDY CIK TAT!!Here's your cake!!!


 OWH!And not to forget...Happy BELATED Birthday to my other love in this life (Do feel ease. My heart big enough to fill you guys.You guys ARE my world ok? )


P/S: And you know what?While i search all this pics...typing "HAPPY 23 BIRTHDAY" (and all those pics looks great and delicious too..hu3..and kinda make me hungry), i found an interesting pic...

Aren't he look fimiliar minah..tatie and hajar?he3.

Thursday, 21 July 2011

cili oh cili~

Situasi : 
Mija and Ajiq sedang makan nasi goreng cina. Tiba-tiba ja Mija terus berlari-lari anak ke arah along yang dok kat dapoq.

mija   : ibu..air...air...

along : kenapa mija?

mija : abang tipu mija....dia kata tu bukan cili tapi cili

along: abang, kasi mija air.

ajiq : abang kata tu cili hangus laa..sapa suruh mija makan? ada abang suruh?
        ( sambil hulur air, sambil marah )

mija : yerr laa...tapi cili hangus tu bukan cili...cili takder hangus kat belakang...


Wednesday, 20 July 2011

kerana lapo...suma bley wut!

Kali nih aku nak story menda yang jadi dekat aku la.
Kes nih bley kata hot-hot gorpis la (kalo translate melayu profesional org kata panas-panas pisang goreng ka goreng pisang?).

Anyway...aku memang gelabah tahap gaban (oh...aku memamg jenis mudah gelabah...tapi nih gelabah tahap maksimum lagi!!).
And tok pengetahuan korg suma...tangan aku ketaq tak abes lagi!!Siyes!!!
Ketaq lutut abes arr.Sampeikan jantung aku pam 200 km/h aku rasa.(Okey..nih hiperbola yang terlampau...tapi memang dup dap lebih dari had besa la).

Nak jadikan cerita, semalam aku masak ayaq panas la (Nih habit aku la.Aku suka bancuh ayaq malam-malam sebelum tido).

Then nak sedapkan cerita lagi...BOLEH AKU LUPA NAK TUTUP GAS!!!(Bahaya siot!!Korg jangan tiru cam aku!Tapi siyes!! Aku lupa!!!). So abes la tong gas umah kak aku. Tapi agak mujoq tak jadi apa-apa. (Aku ngaku aku memang clumsy...tapi nih memang tahap mafia la punya clumsy.Hu3).

Jadi...dari alkesah semalam...terbitlah kesah ari nih yang hampir meng'ICU'kan aku.

Why? Ya la. Gas abes. So macam mana aku nak masak? Makan apatah lagi.

Jadi kak aku pon menitahkan aku g makan kat luaq. Along suruh la aku gigih berjalan ke kedai yang berdekatan . Al-maklum la...ari nih kan ari kerja.

So aku ja la yang terdampar di umah ini with internet and eletricity and piles of house chores to do la.
Tapi pokok persoalannya, MANA ADA KEDAI YANG DEKAT!!SUMA JAUH!! Hmmm.

Kalo nak di ikutkan...kalo jalan kaki...ada gak la dalam 10-15 minit...kalo jalan laju-laju la.
Kalo bajet nak jalan ala-ala cerita BOLLYWOOD..pusing pokok sana...menari-nari...joget-joget...maen ummm cak!!umm cak!!...aku rasa dekat sejam la gak kot tanpa NG .Hmmm.

So after depa suma off to work (along ang abg ipaq aku) and school (ajiq) and nursery (mija and akief la)..so tinggal la aku sorg-sorg  ngan perut mula mendendangkan lagu k-pop yang berkenaan. (Aku rasa ring ding dong kot. Sob3.Lapo weh!!).

Tapi...ya...ada tapi ya kengkawan...Tapi...abang ipaq aku tinggalkan kereta waja  dan kunci kereta di umah!!!(YES!!!BINGGO!!!).
Lalu...idea bijak lagi bernas pon mula la terbit bagaikan mentari terbit di negara jepun!!
Oh yes!!

Hence, dengan keberanian yang menggunung...bersama selawat dan istifar yang boleh tahan banyak kali gak, daku berjalan menuju ke arah kereta itu.
Enjin kereta  di'start' kan...gear reverse pon daku masuk sambei kaki tekan clash ...tangan pon release hand break...tekan minyak sikit...then..off to go!!

AND IT IS MIRACLE!!!  
MIRACLE I SAY!!!

Kereta bergerak weh!!

Tahu tak betapa bahagianya daku waktu tu.
Gelaban mesti la ada.Cuak berbakul-bakul la.
Tapi..kereta bergerak!!!HAHAHAHAHAHA!!!
Korang tak tahu dah bopa lama aku tinggai bawak kereta.

After aku dapat lesen P...terus aku wut pekasam. Parents tak bagi bawak.
Then bila dah penuh...pon tak bagi bawak lagi. 
Tapi bila mem besaq bebel kat babah, babah pon beli la keta auto kat aku. Viva.
Tapi tu pon babah tak bagi bawak.
And aku rasa...even plat kereta empat number handphone aku yang belakang ...babah macam suka ja BABY aku tu. (Aku penggei Viva tu BABY. He3)
Ya la. Kaki tak sakit sangat. Hmmm.
Tu la..org dah lama suruh beli keta auto..tak nak dengaq. Pak Ya.. oh Pak Ya.

Bila dah da kereta auto sebijik...mula la berebut kunci ngan mak. Suma pakat-pakat nak bawak. Then along pon join sekaki nak rebut keta viva tu.
Abes?
Kereta itu yang dikatakan kepunyaan aku pon aku tak bawak sangat.
Nih apa cerita nih? Habaq mai sat? Haish.

Okey.

Berbalik pada cerita aku tadi...aku pon bawak la kereta waja tu pergi kedai yang berdekatan.
Tapi aku rasa, better aku gi kedai runcit. Beli roti. Boleh tahan sampei petang dari nasik sekali makan sekali habis.

Apa? kalo lapo, drive la lagi? 
HANGGUK KOME!!! Takat drive sekali pon nak tercabut jantung aku, nih pulak berkali-kali!!! MAU AKU ENAM KAKI BAWAH TANAH KANG!!.

Oleh itu, daku pon membuat keputusan untuk gi ja kedai runcit, beli roti, then blah.
Tapi jalan nak gi sana, husih.. Tak la payah sangat, tapi susah la for org yang beginner macam aku.  
Dah la berbukit. Ada traffic light. Ada bumper setiap 700 meter. Kawasan perumahan. So of course la banyak kereta!!!

Namun, aku gagahi jugak. Lapo weh. Hence aku bawak la walaupun agak cam siput sedut nak mati tengah jalan. Kereta belakang maki aku bolayan jer. Muka selamber, tapi hati ALLAH saja yang tau.

Then sampei kat traffic, nak jadi cerita, dok elok-elok kaler ijau, terus merah! ( Sangatla mencabar kehandalan aku drive yer.)

Jadi, harusla aku berhenti. Aku dok break la kan. Tapi aku rasa tak la lama tara mana, lampu pon hijau. Aku pon kalut la nak paut kereta. Sekali enjin mati la pulek!!!Aiseh!!

Dah la kereta belakang dok hon aku!! Dengan pantas aku pon start balik enjin kereta, trus paut dan pecut!! HAHAHAHA!!Aku memang suka wut menda yang mencabar gini. HAHAHAHA.

Akhirnya, sampei la kat destinasi yang ingin ku tuju. Kedai Runcit.

Jauh betul perjalanan semata-mata nak beli roti gardiner tu. Haish. Tapi...ya..ada tapi lagi..KEDAI TAK BUKA LAGI LA PULAK!! Tau tak sikit punya susah aku nak gi kedai korg!! Mencabar!! Korg tau tak!!!
So aku pon tunggu la dalam kereta and bila agak-agak kedai buka, aku pon serbu la.

Aku pon ambek la Roti Gardiner Coklat Tiga.

Then brother yang dok citu pon kata, "Cik, kedai buka pukul sepuloh."  OMG!!!

Hampir luruh jantung aku!!!Kenapa pukul sepuluh!! Kenapa bukan sekarang!!
Kenapa?!!WHY?!!DOUSHITE?!!WAE?!!Hu3.

Dengan langkah longlai, daku pon drive la blek umah. Lambat lagi nak buka. Aku merajuk dengan kedai itu!! Sob3.

Daku pon drive dengan perut yang ntah tune lagu apa tah. Tapi drive balek pon da story gak! Boleh pulak kereta aku mati kat traffic lagi! Sungguh!!! Kenapa harus ada lampu insyarat itu!!! Arghhh!! 

Dah la mati kat situ. Kawasan berbukit lak tu!! Korang bayangkan kereta go stand ke belakang!! Argh!! 

Lalu dengan pantas, aku angkat hand break, start enjin balik, masuk gear then pecut!!! Dalam dok pecut, boleh pulak aku lupa nak free hand braek . Haish! Mampoih kalo Pak Ya tau. Haish!

Then aku pon smpei la kat umah, dengan perut yang kosong dan pengalaman membawa kereta yang dasyat. Haish. 

Tu la al-kesah ari nih.Sekian. 

 P/s: Alamat minum ayaq kosong la aku ri nih..hu3. Tobat aku tak nak bawak dah.Hu3 Tobat ri nih ja la. Esok lupa..tengok la lagu na. Hu3.

Saturday, 16 July 2011

a walk to remember

It's 3 a.m (3.15 a.m to be precisely) and i am watching anime while reading manga and writing new entry for my blog ( so much for multi-task person, am i ? He3). Yup.You can say that i am anime and manga freak (oh well...most of my friend already know about it.He3).

As i browsing some of new manga online, my eyes suddenly caught a title of a manga. It is called as 'Socrates in Love'.( Interesting, right? ). Judging from the review from those that already read it, this manga already converted to a movie . One is in Koren - 'My Girl and I ' starring by Song Hye Gyo and the guy from sassy girl movie.  Then, the Japanese version of the movie goes with the title 'Crying Out Love' , ' In the Center of the World', 'Sekai no Chuusin de', or known as ' Ai o Sakebu' . But i must say, i haven't watch any of those movies yet.

As i scroll down their comments, a comments draw my attention to it. It states that this manga is like the story of ' A walk to remember', and to tell you the truth, I REALLY LOVE THAT NOVEL!!! 

YEP!!I DO LOVE IT!!

I can still remember, the 1st time i heard about it when i was 17 years old. I start watching the movie starring by Mandy Moore and the guy..err...he is..err....i ...forgot.... his name already (sorry, my bad. =(. so sorry. Hu3). But hye...i know his character name. London.(He3). To be frank...between me and you, as i watch that movie.... i cried...a lot!!!yep!!!A LOT!!! By just watching that movie!!!( YES!! That damn good movie made me cry to my heart content. ME! the heartless ME!CRY!!! ) And the scene were i cried...was being caught red handed by my neighbor!!!( You would not know how embarrass i am at that time ). But i just cant help it!! You know. It just..so  sad... And touching...  And the story, is so ....touching....and the character do love each other so badly....and....and.....URGH!!!IT IS MARVELS!!SPLENDID!!BRAVO!! Indeed it is worth to watch...over and over again. As for the soundtrack, just perfect! The songs...really touch my heart. (and still, it keeps ringing in me).

As  for the novel, i started to read it a year after i watch it of course. At KMPK. I borrow it from a friend of  my roomette. And guess what? Even though i already watch the movie, i must say...by reading the book....IS MUCH....MUCH...MUCH...MUCH MORE MARVELS!!SPLENDID!!!BRAVO!!.( You would not know how many pile of tears i can collect as i read that book ). And of course, the part that i cry, was caught by my roomette!(She just went back from tutor class as she saw me cried like..err...u can say that i cry, that's all. And of course, she was quite shock to see THAT I CRY. BAKA NEKO!!OF COURSE I WOULD CRY,YOU IDIOT!!!WHO DOESN'T??!!!).


If u ask me, between movie and novel, which one better? I would say, both have it's own attraction. The part that can make you laugh, smile, and cry. To be honest, reading the novel give me much more feelings than watching the movie.We can imagine as we read. Besides, there would be budget limit in every movie,while by reading..the only thing is to imagine. As you read, the imagination would run freely, together with the scene that already written by the author. Before that, i keep wondering, 'Why on earth it is called as A WALK TO REMEMBER?'. When i finish reading that book, i finally know why. And yes...again..i cry. But this time... a cry of relief... for both character. 




But let me give u a warn...you might laugh. You might smile. You will feel happy. Then, you will cry. A LOT. It's kinda twist and mix feelings. But i can sure you, you will feel all of it at once. By just reading this book.It is indeed ,worth book to buy. And i do not regret buying this book. Even i read it over and over again, i still cry. A LOT. (^_^).